Jealousy claws and chews me all up
Oh God the pain
Jack told me a lot of words
about not being romantically involved
with Norma
but my feelings didn't soak it in
She's there in her apartment
I want to write faster
then the pen will move
I want to crawl up into a ball
on his bed so when he gets back
he'll see how miserable I am.
He keeps seeing Norma
and talking to her on the phone
I've told him how I feel
but he disregards it.
You know when you cry
how hurt you feel?
Well, all the hurt is here
all that's missing is the tears.
Is Jack trying to get back at me
so to build himself up
after what Pat did?
Jack's voice sounded angry at me

I don't want to talk
to relate with energy flowing
don't even want to be excited
or turned on
I just want to be with you
quiet
uninspired
no stars popping out of me
just be calm
just be
just be

The day will move like a fast current
I'll have to struggle
to stay a.float
so now I'm here
soon I'll be on the road
cars passing
me passing cars
so I'd like to grab
a few minutes of quiet.
The clock is eating away at our peace
but while there is a little left
I want to keep it.

The days so stuffed
with things to do
going from point A
to point B
stretching to get there on time
carrying this
carrying that
answering to this
then he walks up
and says to my army
go the other way
The soldiers drop their guns
and want to quit.
So, it's nice to just be here
for a minute
not running here
not running there
But the noise of what I must do
makes this moment ever more precious.

Poetry is my way
of trying to order
the chaos
and confusion
I feel.
Words -
stack up feelings neatly
A poem is an attempt
to have some control.