In two hours I'll be With him
waiting for days and nights
How will I treat my goal?
What to do with the feelings that have accumulated
Will they come out backwards?
It would be easier if there
were just a few feelings
but there are so many
Too many
Too many
I will feel less pangs of love
when with him
then I did while longing for him.
It's hard to be functional and easy
With someone you've tortured for.
I feel he's neglected me
Should I make demands
will they corral him
or chase him away?
His wife and job get his best
I get left-overs
and he's the main part of my life.
My air.
Endless hours of missing him
I'm mad at him for staying away
If I didn't love him so
I could have put him out of my mind
and greet him fresh tonight.
But I have been longing and missing
and waiting.....
The Expressway will be so slow taking me to him.