I don't understand why
I talk about other people
when I'm with Peter
and then talk and talk about Peter
when I'm with other people.
I dream about being quiet and relaxed with Peter and then when I'm with him
I'm hyper and talkative.
To be able to actually do what I dream
is too highly charged.
It would mean too much
if I allowed my whole soul
to melt and stretch to him
I would be totally hurt
when he leaves me again.
It would be as if he were saying
your whole soul isn't enough
I have more than that elsewhere.