Here I sit in a flimsy motor boat
with lawyers at the helm
steering the boat forward
and I have a destination -
But there is a current
tugging at me to go back home.
It's an undertow pulling.
Why is there an undercurrent
pulling back
when I really wanted to leave,
I think?
Why am I leaving
when a part of me wants to go home?
Maybe, I should get on shore
and stand solemn
and have a divorce funeral
and talk about the death,
the gruesome, horrible death of a marriage and give it a proper burial.
Or maybe
I should jump out of the boat
and swim in direction
escaping undertow.